SA...

If he wanted to go drinkin and driving more than he wanted to be by your side you are better off to find out now.

When the person comes along that you are meant to be with *forever* there will be no drug, no model of truck...and noone or nothing else in this world that can keep you apart.

I agree w/ StormCrow...get out and be seen. I would also urge you to re-examine your past. I found my lifelong love in someone I knew WAYYYY back in Jr high school.

Lastly...here's some old fart advice for ya:

Don't look for love. You won't find it.

It will find you when ya least expect it

;-)