I have been depressed much of my life do to past experiences dealing with family and the such, but I have found bud to help with it and many other problems I have. Recently I was arrested for paraphernalia and had decided to not smoke till after my court date, but after almost a week of sobriety (longest in a while) my depresion has hit rock bottom. I have n, and I am embaressed to admit i have begun cutting. My lines of thought have begun to become muddled. I have also had thoughts of suicide for the first time in almost 4 years. I also feel as if reality is about to fall apart and all my family's problems are because of me. Before I started smoking I was prone to mood swings of extreme anger and they are back and have gotten worse.Frankly I just don't know what to do
hello3pat Reviewed by hello3pat on . New Low, help I have been depressed much of my life do to past experiences dealing with family and the such, but I have found bud to help with it and many other problems I have. Recently I was arrested for paraphernalia and had decided to not smoke till after my court date, but after almost a week of sobriety (longest in a while) my depresion has hit rock bottom. I have n, and I am embaressed to admit i have begun cutting. My lines of thought have begun to become muddled. I have also had thoughts of suicide Rating: 5