Well I havent gotten stoned in a while and I got some new weed today and the whole time its being crazy intospective. Ive been sorting out some big issues (I bet it was mescaline or something ). But anyway, I just feel in love with everybody right now and Im afraid that tomorrow Ill be my same unagreeable self. I will not disagree that I dont have flaws, I could write a book. However I think that I just have the personality of an asshole and that from that, all my other problems seem to stem. Now, I feel like I have done plenty of good things, I'm not saying I'm a complete asshole, but the more i think about it, the more it makes sense. I also remember thats why I like smoking so much: the after effects. The day after I get high Im unusually agreeable. Everybody notices it and it's fairly obvious. I dont know if I'm just getting big comedowns during the week from smoking on the weekends or what, but I do know that it really helps me distance myself from my ego for a period of time and be more empathatic with others. It really is a love drug... Compare this to if I wake up hung over and would call an anorexic chick fat if she bothered me. Why this stuff isnt legal I will never know. It feels like it does a number on your brain though.