Thanks man, thats some good advice. But the thing is, it isnt as if everyones been telling me I suck my whole life. I am the oldest of my brothers and everything I did was put on a pedestal. I was pretty much spoiled and I think that all that at such an early age turned me into an asshole. I have always been (not to sound like an asshole )very intellegent and one of the "smart" kids in the class so I was always getting this praise but my social life kind of fell off. During middle school and a lot of late lower school though, I got a little bit of heat because I guess I was kind of intimidating and I was also a little full of myself too. After my peers convinced me I was no more special then the rest of the crowd I kind of became the rest of the crowd. But I never felt like I was being genuine, like all this blending in wasnt really me. So for some reason, I've always felt awkward around my peers. I think after being forced to stay in the crowd for so long and now to be expected to branch out and let all these great gifts I have come to fruition my talents are as stifled as an average person. Even I can see the side of me thats full of myself come out in these past few sentences. Sorry if this is all really disjointed but I am very tired and :stoned: