Anxiety Attack, Scarriest moment of my life

[FeedmeWeed]

Like many of you, I have read about anxiety attacks and their relationship to drugs and alcohol. I myself am not a very anxious person and have never experienced anything remotely like an attack. I never saw myself having an anxiety attack, but its amazing how quickly life changes.


I had just gotten hom from class after a long walk through the snow. I sat down at my computer and started to read about depression. I did not think that I was depressed, but as I started reading about the signs of depression, I found that many of them applied to me.... and out of nowhere, I started to feel sad.

This sad was different though. If any of you recall, I am the same person who lost the ability to feel emotions http://http://boards.cannabis.com/sh...ad.php?t=92993. And for the first time in many months, I actually felt sad. It was so strange, because usualy sad is seen as a negative emotion, one you do not want to feel..... but it felt great, it was amazing, I was feeling again.

my mind then soon drifted into thinking about suicide, not actually contemplating it, I was just thinking about it. And then BOOOM! it hit me like a ton of bricks. My heart started racing at a million miles an hour, pumping up the most negative emotion I have ever felt into my head and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I fell on the ground and began crying like I have never cried in my entire life.

I lost all ability to think rationally, and for the first time in my entire life, I really wanted to kill myself. This is hard for me to explain, because I really didnt want to "DIE" but I just wanted this to end. the problem is, when your having an anxiety attack, you really dont think rationaly, and I was semi aware of this. So I ran to my car and drove to the ER as fast as I could before i lost control and did something really stupid (IE suicide)

by the time I got to the ER I was hyper-ventalating and I nearly lost conciousness. when I regained my consciouness I was SOAKED in swet.

The entire time this was happeneing I was balling like a baby, not over anything specific at all, just crying. I was badly dehydrated and had to rehydrate.

They gave me some anti anxiety meds and now im going to go see a counselor. they said depression and pot led to this attack, and I need to refrain from drug use for a while

If anyone else would like to share their anxiety attack stories I would love to hear them, or just any questions, comments, or remarks

FeedmeWeed Reviewed by FeedmeWeed on 12-04-2006. Anxiety Attack, Scarriest moment of my life Like many of you, I have read about anxiety attacks and their relationship to drugs and alcohol. I myself am not a very anxious person and have never experienced anything remotely like an attack. I never saw myself having an anxiety attack, but its amazing how quickly life changes. I had just gotten hom from class after a long walk through the snow. I sat down at my computer and started to read about depression. I did not think that I was depressed, but as I started reading about the Rating: 5

[KGod86]

whats meds are you on? and i think what you expierenced was a panic attack, anxiety is excessive worry, panic attack is what you are describing, i used to take meds, ive been suffering from panic for 10yrs, i have an imbalance, its hard to deal with, makes me feel like shit everyday.

[bzbuzzard]

wats your dealers number cuz whatever your smokin is some crucial stuff lol

[bunnyc]

man i'm happy you're going to see a counselor.
i THINK you've probably had a very hard life but just forget about whatever has made you like this, you've got youre whole life ahead of you.
Just profit of life and weed!

[orangeman]

Daaaaamn, at first it reminded me of what happened to me the first time I had an anxiety attack, but I was fuckin dry. When you said you had to go to E.R. and was sweating like hell I was like "wow" lol. Man please find out from the doctor what they found in your system.

[Relic]

I used to get panic attacks but not so much anymore. Breathing helps a lot to alleviate symptoms of a panic attack from occuring. Take a deep breath in from your nose your stomach should rise as you inhale then exhale slowly through your mouth while your stomach falls. A 3 count as you inhale and and a 5 count as you exhale. Thousand 1 thousand 2 and so forth... I know it helped me tremendously. Breathing might work for you or it might not.

[horror business]

I've been where you've been. I used to have terrible panic attacks exactly like you described. They were so scary, that they would continue at random times, and it caused me post traumatic stress disorder as well. That was when I was 13. I was prescribed Paxil, it fixed it, and I've been on Paxil ever since, and now I'm going to be 17 in a few days. I'm going to quit Paxil though, since I don't feel I need it, now that I don't have panic attacks.

[Zimzum]

I used to be on Paxil then Paxil CR for depersion. I quit taken them against my docters wishes because of the sexual side effects. Horror business, Its gona be tough if you go cold turkey off paxil. However I do still have a valium script for anytime an anxity/panic attack sets in. Usually for me its triggers from being around large groups of people I don't know. Like the mall at christmas time.

[horror business]

At first I was on 12.5mg of Paxil CR, then 25mg of CR, then either 35 or 50 (I can't recall). For the past year and a half (maybe even 2) I've been on Paraxotine(sp) 40MG which isn't controlled release, and is the generic version of Paxil. I talked to my mom today, and after the New Year, we're going to talk to my doctor about weening me off.

[greenbeard]

When I feel a panic attack coming on, I take 3mg of Lorazepam (generic Ativan), and i chew the pills to get them into my system faster (better than waiting 15-30 min for them to dissolve in my stomach)----altho the taste can be very bitter----but more tolerable than a panic attack----it usually works pretty fast and i get back to feeling normal.

Good luck,
greenbeard