Anxiety Attack, Scarriest moment of my life

[VoidLivesOn]

Wow the boy who couldn't feel emotions? Has that ever appeared on a freak show train? Or on one of those side show things? Do you happened to be related to the boy who puked toes?

[NightProwler]

once my girlfriend took a monster hit off of this homemade bong and she went into a panic attack.. she was so high too.it was pretty scary but she was really fucking brave and sat through it. alot of people go to the hospital when they have panic attacks cuz they dont know wahts happeneing.
but damn taht was a good bong. it was just mersh weed but 1 hit each and we were all blazed out of our skulls( more than usual)

[az666]

I have suffered from anxiety my whole life. I remember laying in bed as a little kid trying to talk myself into calming down...thinking I was having a heart attack..thinking I was dying....I was afraid to sleep.

I remember my mom telling me it was anxiety...and I was so glad that I wasn't dying!!

I hate how anxiety attacks make me be irrational. I will just start freaking out and nothing can make me feel better..it's like once I start down that dark hole...It is just going to get really bad.

It is gotten so bad that mid freakout I will just open up a bottle of pillls and put them all in my mouth. Why? I don't know..it's not even like a thought process happens...
...I just have this horrible feeling of wanting to be out of my head...be anywhere but my head...this horrible feeling overcomes my whole body...I start to uncontrollably shake..and I start to hyperventalate...and my breathing gets all fucked up...
Sometimes ill just flail and just go out of control.

I like to be destructive...throw things...break things...hit things.

I hate it...and now that I live by myself..when I get anxiety attacks I just try to call anyone I can to get them to talk me into calming down.

I should probably go get help...but I don't think anything will help me...but, I know I have a problem...

You should maybe go and talk to someone about that...
If you think there are going to be problems.

I have a similar feeling somtimes....I have never thought of it as panic attacks
before. I guess I never "really" knew what they felt like until I read this thread.
My feeling is like a really bad trip...where you feel numb, cold, lonely and like you are dying...I hadn't felt like it untill I had a really bad trip and since then I felt it on a couple of occasions...

lol just thought id type for a bit

[az666]

when I say numb, I mean that weird feeling (if anyone has felt like this before) when a limb is twisting, or stretching (spine twisting, face twisting and stretching) and it stretches so far it goes through it's self and speeds up faster and faster untill it's just a blur of numb...I guess like weird vibrations so fast it seems so constant that it just feels numb

[stinkyattic]

I've had anxiety problems for as long as I can remember... for some reason all my teachers thought I had ADD and that's why I had a tough time in class...I wish I'd been diagnosed in like junior high.

The scariest panic attack I ever had though was, oddly, at a Best Buy store. The shelving display units are just about as tall as I am and I can see that there are people in the next aisle but only barely...

for some reason, on this one occasion, it freaked me out so badly that all I wanted was to run out the door and just breathe fresh air...And I couldn't remember where the door was.

I was with the BF luckily and just started telling him, please take me outside- but he didn't understand, and then thought I was being irrational- well, yeah, that's kind of the definition of a panic attack- but then realized that I was serious. It's really scary!

That's when I started seeing my new therapist and she was like, um, yeah, why does your old shrink have you on Zoloft, WTF, and changed me over to Celexa which is SO much more effective for my particular issue and IMO a lot gentler on my system.

In general I used to have problems waking up in the middle of the night and just laying there feeling like my heart was racing uncontrollably- not like a full-blown massive get-me-out-of-here- NOW panic attack, but really disruptive in its own right.

Anyway that's my experience.