Anxiety Attack, Scarriest moment of my life

[FeedmeWeed]

Like many of you, I have read about anxiety attacks and their relationship to drugs and alcohol. I myself am not a very anxious person and have never experienced anything remotely like an attack. I never saw myself having an anxiety attack, but its amazing how quickly life changes.


I had just gotten hom from class after a long walk through the snow. I sat down at my computer and started to read about depression. I did not think that I was depressed, but as I started reading about the signs of depression, I found that many of them applied to me.... and out of nowhere, I started to feel sad.

This sad was different though. If any of you recall, I am the same person who lost the ability to feel emotions http://http://boards.cannabis.com/sh...ad.php?t=92993. And for the first time in many months, I actually felt sad. It was so strange, because usualy sad is seen as a negative emotion, one you do not want to feel..... but it felt great, it was amazing, I was feeling again.

my mind then soon drifted into thinking about suicide, not actually contemplating it, I was just thinking about it. And then BOOOM! it hit me like a ton of bricks. My heart started racing at a million miles an hour, pumping up the most negative emotion I have ever felt into my head and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I fell on the ground and began crying like I have never cried in my entire life.

I lost all ability to think rationally, and for the first time in my entire life, I really wanted to kill myself. This is hard for me to explain, because I really didnt want to "DIE" but I just wanted this to end. the problem is, when your having an anxiety attack, you really dont think rationaly, and I was semi aware of this. So I ran to my car and drove to the ER as fast as I could before i lost control and did something really stupid (IE suicide)

by the time I got to the ER I was hyper-ventalating and I nearly lost conciousness. when I regained my consciouness I was SOAKED in swet.

The entire time this was happeneing I was balling like a baby, not over anything specific at all, just crying. I was badly dehydrated and had to rehydrate.

They gave me some anti anxiety meds and now im going to go see a counselor. they said depression and pot led to this attack, and I need to refrain from drug use for a while

If anyone else would like to share their anxiety attack stories I would love to hear them, or just any questions, comments, or remarks

FeedmeWeed Reviewed by FeedmeWeed on 12-04-2006. Anxiety Attack, Scarriest moment of my life Like many of you, I have read about anxiety attacks and their relationship to drugs and alcohol. I myself am not a very anxious person and have never experienced anything remotely like an attack. I never saw myself having an anxiety attack, but its amazing how quickly life changes. I had just gotten hom from class after a long walk through the snow. I sat down at my computer and started to read about depression. I did not think that I was depressed, but as I started reading about the Rating: 5

[FeedmeWeed]

sorry wrong forum please delete

[TallulahGreen]

I have suffered from anxiety my whole life. I remember laying in bed as a little kid trying to talk myself into calming down...thinking I was having a heart attack..thinking I was dying....I was afraid to sleep.

I remember my mom telling me it was anxiety...and I was so glad that I wasn't dying!!

I hate how anxiety attacks make me be irrational. I will just start freaking out and nothing can make me feel better..it's like once I start down that dark hole...It is just going to get really bad.

It is gotten so bad that mid freakout I will just open up a bottle of pillls and put them all in my mouth. Why? I don't know..it's not even like a thought process happens...
...I just have this horrible feeling of wanting to be out of my head...be anywhere but my head...this horrible feeling overcomes my whole body...I start to uncontrollably shake..and I start to hyperventalate...and my breathing gets all fucked up...
Sometimes ill just flail and just go out of control.

I like to be destructive...throw things...break things...hit things.

I hate it...and now that I live by myself..when I get anxiety attacks I just try to call anyone I can to get them to talk me into calming down.

I should probably go get help...but I don't think anything will help me...but, I know I have a problem...

[hello3pat]

I used to get anxiety attacks when I was still alergic to magnolia, because when I would be exposed to it I would wake up in the middle of the night and it would feel like my throught was seeled up and I would freak. I also used to have thoughts of suicide, I think the first time that happened was almost 5 years ago, the latest was last week when I got arrested.

[suhl]

whatever you say sissy boy

[suhl]

just kidding, crying for no reason happens to all of us time to time

[emanresu]

hah ive had a anxiety attack at a hospital once...i was hooked up to that bag of water shit lolz...and this stupid cunt nurse injected another drug into me saying i will feel better...2mins after injection i had this urge to get the FUCK OUT of there...still with a needle in my right wrist...i got up and started walking out...nurse freaked out and i freaked out and then they dosed me with something else...it calmed my nerves down very quickly...and i felt at ease again....man...fuckin hospitals...

[FeedmeWeed]

just kidding, crying for no reason happens to all of us time to time

umm okay... but crying to the point where you want to kill yourself is not normal, and it does not happen to "all of us"

[munkjunkie]

My friend had anxiety attacks then totally lost it got taken away by the men in white coats,dont worry that probably wont happen to u

[crudemood]

I have anxiety too. Just too many things to think about and worry about.
Takes me a long time until I can drift off to sleep.
Anxiety gets so bad I start to get depressed because I think there is something horribly wrong with me. Glad to know there are other people and I'm not alone.
We will suffer through this together, friends.