well, i think we obviously all have different perspectives, experiences, etc...so we do create our own versions of life within ourselves, definitely.
but we're all in this together, you think you just created this post? hell no mang, im as real as your nipples when they get hard because of the cold.

you'll find out about death when you die, makes sense, no?
'til then, enjoy life and don't worry, because everyone...and I mean EVERYONE has thought those exact thoughts in their lives before.

Good luck, and enjoy life man
taking breaks from the huana always helps getting back on track as well.

peace to you brother