Quote Originally Posted by orangeman
All I know is I really feel like I'm going insane. I keep trying to stop thinking about death and all the negativity around me but it's just not working. It feels like maybe all this I'm doing is just a perception, but it's really all mines. Like this is my world and when I shut down it shuts down. I usually think what I am doing my mind is creating and everyone and everything is what I have created. It's strange and I dunno how to explain it. I think I should lay off the Juana .
and what you have to realise is, death is jsut a transition from a phase to another. absolutely nothing more then that. its nothing to be afraid of. all the pain in the world, its the same energy that positivity comes from, and everythign else. what im getting at, its all equal. you jsut have to interperit it in a way that can become positive, instead of jsut feeding off naturally positive actions/emotions.

do i make sense?

try to cut back on the weed if its messing with your mind, thatt a clear sign form your body to give it a rest for a bit. try smoking only on weekends, that works real nicely for me. you gotta realise, sobriety is still a cool state to be in, its nice..being high is great too, but its all equal! nah mean? haha, peace bro