yea man i kinda agree with you on the point that bud has pretty much shot my short term memory in the face... but you know, i have no regrets, im going through some of what your going through, its gonna be hard the next couple of years.. but you know what i realize? life will go on no matter what you think about, so i just try and have fun and live my life as best i can, some bad things are going to happen, thats a given. however good things WILL happen too. just keep your head up man, itll get easier, sooner or later.