Was it all a dream?

[orangeman]

Man I miss the past. I am not sure about anything anymore. I occasionally talk to people that used to be real cool with me. My thoughts are blurred because my memory is just messed up and I do believe marijuana is responsible for it. But the point is even though I'm 16 where do I go from here? How far will I go and when will I stop? When I'm facing death what comes after that? Anything at all, will our brains just shut down and it's a empty blackness? Even though we won't know if we don't exist or not how are we sure what will go on? Will we dream forever after we pass away? I mean I'm thinking about all the stuff that used to happen. It's just a blur but it's still there. What happened to all the good times..have anyone else's life been really good in the past and just go to shit and never to be repaired? Just sitting here really has me thinking..is this just what we classify as a "dream"? Who am I really...Why does it seem like I'm just a human just witnessing everything around me go to hell, time passing by living by one string that can easily be snipped? Sorry about my rambling but I'm not sure about anything anymore. I just can't understand how something that was so good just disappear into the past. Why does it seem like I will never find eternal happiness?

orangeman Reviewed by orangeman on 11-30-2006. Was it all a dream? Man I miss the past. I am not sure about anything anymore. I occasionally talk to people that used to be real cool with me. My thoughts are blurred because my memory is just messed up and I do believe marijuana is responsible for it. But the point is even though I'm 16 where do I go from here? How far will I go and when will I stop? When I'm facing death what comes after that? Anything at all, will our brains just shut down and it's a empty blackness? Even though we won't know if we don't exist Rating: 5

[wayoftheleaf]

Yeah you think that is fucked up> thats the shit I was thinking when i was FUCKING 6. And people wonder why i have issues.

[TallulahGreen]

You create your own reality. Thats all I gotta say at this point.

[wayoftheleaf]

life is just a reality. I believe that there is a ripple, that is basically a culmination of every possible reality. But that is just my theory.

[orangeman]

All I know is I really feel like I'm going insane. I keep trying to stop thinking about death and all the negativity around me but it's just not working. It feels like maybe all this I'm doing is just a perception, but it's really all mines. Like this is my world and when I shut down it shuts down. I usually think what I am doing my mind is creating and everyone and everything is what I have created. It's strange and I dunno how to explain it. I think I should lay off the Juana .

[wayoftheleaf]

naw man i went through that when i was six. But i was in deprssion. Maybe you are? who knows.

But lots of people go through a phase where they are overly concerned with their own mortality, and those around them. It usually hits right around the teens years so I guess thats it. Wait for birdgirl to post, shell have more definant answers prolly.

[Professor Dan K.]

yea man i kinda agree with you on the point that bud has pretty much shot my short term memory in the face... but you know, i have no regrets, im going through some of what your going through, its gonna be hard the next couple of years.. but you know what i realize? life will go on no matter what you think about, so i just try and have fun and live my life as best i can, some bad things are going to happen, thats a given. however good things WILL happen too. just keep your head up man, itll get easier, sooner or later.

[SkatePopwar]

bro i cant believe it but i actually know how you feel!
well with the exception of weed affecting my memory, alot of times i look back and wish i could go back to like, elementary or middle school, it was all so much easier..bc we were all naive back then.

its all jsut so weird though, right? reality is so insignifigant, so many peopel base their lives on some assumptions they make about reality at an early age. but why do so many people constrict themselves to viewing reality form a single point? why do we do what we do..
i cant put it in words quite how i like it, anyways. one day im sure ill be able to, and i bet ill be high too.

[SkatePopwar]

All I know is I really feel like I'm going insane. I keep trying to stop thinking about death and all the negativity around me but it's just not working. It feels like maybe all this I'm doing is just a perception, but it's really all mines. Like this is my world and when I shut down it shuts down. I usually think what I am doing my mind is creating and everyone and everything is what I have created. It's strange and I dunno how to explain it. I think I should lay off the Juana .

and what you have to realise is, death is jsut a transition from a phase to another. absolutely nothing more then that. its nothing to be afraid of. all the pain in the world, its the same energy that positivity comes from, and everythign else. what im getting at, its all equal. you jsut have to interperit it in a way that can become positive, instead of jsut feeding off naturally positive actions/emotions.

do i make sense?

try to cut back on the weed if its messing with your mind, thatt a clear sign form your body to give it a rest for a bit. try smoking only on weekends, that works real nicely for me. you gotta realise, sobriety is still a cool state to be in, its nice..being high is great too, but its all equal! nah mean? haha, peace bro

[wayoftheleaf]

You don't know orangeman very well, this guy smokes so much im suprised he can have enough motivation to make this thread.

Just remember man, all we have to do on this earth is die. That is the only given thing we are gonna have to do. Because of this, it is pointless to dwell on it. We all come to terms with death eventually, it is different for everyone. You will probaly be hit with it late one night.