I understand this and i thank you all for your responses..my parents both drank/smoke when they were younger so they know what its like but they are more disappointed with me about the trust thing..and i understand why.. its just that I feel ive fucked up too many times and the cop today was saying shit about how i might have to go to this rehab place for 28 days which would completely destroy me..People are acting like im fucking addicted to drinking and smoking when i just do it on the weekend w my friends cuz thats all there is to fucking do in this town..I get better grades then fucking 95%of my school, half of them who don't smoke..I honestly don't know what to do or think right now but i feel like i just want to go back like a year and change all the times ive fucked up..which is obviously impossible.
Bongman, I used to have the smae view as you which is that as long as i got good grades nothing else mattered and i would use this against my parents and tell them that it doesn't matter..I dont think Im ever going to stop smoking because it really doesn't affect me at all in a negative away (except for this fucking trouble)..I guess i should stop for a year and focus on school but I would lose many of my close friends..