My boytoy got locked up last year for weed for a year. He was put in a bunch of different programs and eventually got kicked out for bad behavior. He said it wasn't really that bad, even though he was put in some of the worst places with some of the worst people. He got really buff and stuff lol..getting locked up isn't THAT bad, I mean it's pretty shitty but your friends still wait for you and they still love you and usually they exaggerate the time you're going to be there for. I don't know what I'm getting at, I guess that you shouldn't worry so much about it, you fucked up and you're going to have to do time eventually..everyone will be there when you get back yanno.