Good luck, Cyrax, with that phone call tomorrow. Keep in mind that you have the rest of your life in front of you. And if you can do that better with some structured help, maybe that's meant to be. One thing's for sure. You wouldn't be better off dead. You'd be dead. And you'd have destroyed a whole bunch of other people's lives in the process. I don't think you really would want to do that, but that's how it'd play out. Suicide is not a legacy you want to leave your family with, no matter how messed up they may be. It's a permanent solution to temporary problems.