lol, it's cool man we've all been there. I sort of see what you mean now that I'm not all stoned myself; tramadol's kind of weired that way, it doesn't impair your ability to write or express yourself, but it can make you grouchy as hell and have trouble interpreting things.

Anyway, I think there can be a lot more to life than what we make of it, but unfortunately most people don't. I'm working on my education right now to get a more mentally stimulating job, and in the meantime I was quite miserable at pretty much every job I've had since they were all uneducated and repetetive tasks that held no meaning. Some people are satisfied to just wake up, go to their same mindless job, eat the same crappy food, crap out that same food, and go to bed and do the same all over again. Personally I've never understood how anybody can be content living this way, nothing made me more miserable and discontented than sticking to the same brainless roughtine, and wasting 8 hours of my day mentally numbing myself.

I think the only thing we can do to truly be happy is to always keep pushing ourselves mentally and physically to grow, to learn, to increase our abilities. It's these ruts in life, especially in modern society, that leads to so much of the depression and anxiety we see today.