ok, i know what youre going through. the first few times i tried weed were really confusing, and a bit scary. sometimes i would get WAY too high and could not handle it well. the only cure to this issue is experience. i felt shitty and down 24/7 for about a week after i started smoking pot daily. sooner or later though, i became used to it all and it started to get very enjoyable. my advice is: smoke a few bowls every night for a week before you go to sleep. no, it will not make you a druggie looser, you just need to become used to it. right now im dry and do it every few days, but i never feel shitty like right when i started toking. weed now makes me feel good and happy.

marijuana completley changes you when you start (maybe some people dont get affected as much by these changes, but for me they were huge). like you, i said that weed is not for me... but thankfully i did not quit. before i kept feeling down and whatnot, but now its all good. so yeah, get high a few more times regularly and you will begin to enjoy it. also, make SURE you are in the most comfortable environment you can be in. the last thing you have to worry about is getting in trouble, etc, therefore ruining your high.

good luck!