I think that Mrs P's advice is sound.

I know that you're not looking for pity, Penguin - it feels good, sometimes, to put down in words your inner-most thoughts and emotions. Their is a therapuetic value, even if it is only bashing the keys on a keyboard.
Much in the way that I myself will have a moan - and maybe get some sound advice too

I would, however, ask you to place a 'carriage return' in there somewhere on occasion, as I kept getting lost, and read the same sentence twice, which started making me think I was either experiencing 'de ja vu', or indeed, that I was going mad lmaooo

"A problem shared, is a problem halved", my friend, and we all got stories like yours - you're not alone.
I don't say that to in anyway diminish your emotions, but more to confirm that you'll always find an understanding ear within this place, so don't suffer in silence, dude

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