I understand you totally man, my dealer was cool for awhile and then he became an asshole, and I live out in the sticks so its HARD to find another dealer. I agree, you have to consider it an think A LONG HARD TIME before you start growing, lots of planning to do, I'm thinkin of growin myself but...its kinda hard livin with my parents that know EVERY damn room in the house and shit like that.