I live my life.

How else?

Desperately searching my carpet for bits of weed, after having called every single person I know, regardless of whether they sell, smoke or abstain? Tear out my hair? Drink a bottle of vodka?

No. We're not crack addicts. I do have some trouble sleeping the first night or two without bud after smoking every day for awhile, but the more withdrawal you go through, the more you really need to take a break.