just a question...

[friendowl]

i have had my good friend die in my arms
besides that a lot of my partners arnt here today

i really do know how you feel

you are such a better man than i am
i live with a burning hatred everyday of my life
thats why i stay away from alcohol
when i drink i feel like killing people
i dont fuck around when it comes time to put in work

what works for me is "nature"
i just drive into th emountains or desert
and find a spot where no one is
after some time alone you can think clearly
all the bullshit seems a lil different

if it wasnt for hiking id be on death row
if your brother could speak to you
do you think he would want peace or revenge

if i got shot and passed i would hope someone would ride for me
but thats not very smart

[slipknotpsycho]

i'm actually not sure... he wasn't the type to let anyone get away with any wrong doing to him, but i also doubt he'd want me to put myself in a situation where i wind up being put in prison or something (somehow i bet you if i killed him out of revenge i would get 50+ years...)

[friendowl]

let me just say that you cant think that way

no body no crime

if your a planning man you will suceed

we dont plan to fail we fail to plan

its a small world psycho
one day before he see's you
im sure you'll spot him
just stay ready so you dont have to get ready

[ronjohn420]

i have had my good friend die in my arms
besides that a lot of my partners arnt here today

i really do know how you feel

you are such a better man than i am
i live with a burning hatred everyday of my life
thats why i stay away from alcohol
when i drink i feel like killing people
i dont fuck around when it comes time to put in work

what works for me is "nature"
i just drive into th emountains or desert
and find a spot where no one is
after some time alone you can think clearly
all the bullshit seems a lil different

if it wasnt for hiking id be on death row
if your brother could speak to you
do you think he would want peace or revenge

if i got shot and passed i would hope someone would ride for me
but thats not very smart

yes i know the feeling,,,
as for losing someone to murder i can not relate, although about a year ago i lost a friend to a methadone OD, i saw the night before just loving life and having fun smokin drinkin and poppin pills, the next day i arrived (i left early to sleep) as i opened the door to my friends room, my friend (J.Richards) was lying on the floor cold to the touch, i woke up my buddy........ (story not to be continued)

anyways im so sorry for you and your brother.....

are you a pussy?? hell no

should you ride for him???? thats in your hands only

as for what friendowl said, i couldnt agree more or have said it better myself....
to go out to the woods is a great way to relax
i often drive for 2 hours to reach a patch of woods in the middle of 154 acres of state protected forest to relax and smoke....

do what you need to do man, you have my condolences

[JR77]

is it wrong for a grown man to cry... does that make them weak, or a 'pussy?'

I just wanted to say that I think it is quite the opposite - I think you're weak if you don't show your true feelings....I'm very sorry about your brother...

[Cheery Cherry]

I think BirdGirl said it all...there's not much more I can add besides I'm sorry for your pain and there's absolutely nothing wrong with you crying. It doesn't make you a weak person.

*HUGS*

[tootsie roll]

is it wrong for a grown man to cry... does that make them weak, or a 'pussy?'

Absolutely not. My husband cries when horrible and distressing things happen. Now, the degree of the crying depends on the emotional toll endured. He's cried when we lost a child, he's cried when a parent died, he's cried when I wasn't so sure things would work out. (at a time of my own distress,,,,I couldn't live without him) All humans cry. Animals cry. Crying is a normal, regular part of our emotions. Not sure I'd trust a man that couldn't cry.

[tootsie roll]

what about someone that's not quite 'older' just old enough to be considered a man, crying just about every week about his brother being taken from him... yeah maybe i'm releasing too much info, but i'm actually confused at this point... he's been gone for quite a bit more than a year, and i still find myself in tears atleast weekly...

Aww honey, I'm so sorry for your loss. It's really not been so long and you are still in grief, in pain. Losing a sibling at such a young age is life altering just as losing a parent at a young age is life altering.
It's many years later and I still cry all the time and sometimes it just happens without warning and I find myself in tears. Just suddenly, I'm like" whoa, I'm crying."
I think crying is natures way of helping to purge the hurt. Albeit temporary.

[tootsie roll]

i dont' really know what you're asking, but basicly my brother was murdered just over two years ago, but it's not even the fact he was taken way before 'his time' ... it's just that he's gone... nwo i find myself either in tears, or near tears anytime the subject is brought up at all... at first, i thought it was just part of the mourning process, but now i'm not sure anymore... i don't really know what to think, and i need guidance i guess you could say... it seems like the pain will never subside... it hasn't even lessened and it's been two years... two years is a long time when you spend every day wondering why, and imagining what you would do if you got your hands on the person(s) responsible... i just need to know how everyone else woudl feel/act in this situation...

i dont' know if that really answers the questions at hand, but unless i had some more direct questions that's all i can say...

<<reaching thru the pc giving slipknot a big but gentle hug>>

My mothers brother was murdered in his early 30's. It was torture to see my grandparents' faces and the whole family was changed.

[tootsie roll]

no one but the people present in the apartment really know what happened, and none of them are talking... i'm pretty sure it had something to do with drugs, in some way or another, i have my theories... all iknow for sure, is this dude shot my brother point-blank range with a shotgun in the midsection, and everyone ran to hide guns and drugs, then they came back to call 911... even after all that my brother was still alive when the first respondant to the call arrived, which was an officer.... according to my mom (who has been known to lie, but for some reason, it seems like my brother in every aspect) lived long enough to tell the officer that he's not telling them shit... knowing the type of family this dude came from (the name is very common and well known for being in this type of shit, drugs, guns and even murder...) i believe it when my mom offered up the possibilty the reason my brother wasn't talking was because he had put threats on my mother and my brother...

Your brother died a Hero, his last thought was to protect his family. God Bless Him.