if you're getting at what i think you're getting at, no... if anyone was to do anything to him, it would be me... as i'm afriad, only the things that could be done to him to make me feel everything just, could only come deep from within the hatred i have for him, only someone close to my brother, that felt the way i did, could have enough fuel, to do what i want done to him.... but as an old saying says, an eye for an eye leaves everyone blind, and i believe that... if i were to give this guy what i feels he deserves, then it would just come back, and be a never ending cycle of hunting each other down and making them pay with their life, much in the same fashion you'd expect to see in a movie... no i'm afraid revenge just wouldn't do in this situation...

only my wife knows this, but right now i feel like sharing... almost every night, i have nightmares, and i mean the kind you can feel, the kind you wake up feeling that deeply rooted fear in, that pain, that agony... i don't know how many people experience it... but say for instance you got a gun pointed at you in your dream, you still FEEL the exact same way you'd feel as if it were real... anyways... i often have those dreams, but i'm always just seconds from being able to save him... i really feel like i'm starting to lose it.. sometimes i feel stronger, but for the most part i feel weaker... i feel weak because i'm not doing a damn thing about it.... i feel like i'm just letting my brother lay in dirt with no justice, because as usual, the justice system apppointed by the government has failed...

i don't know about you guys, but i'd MUCH rather have a convicted crack dealer running around the streets then a convicted murderer... and i know this guy and his family (well of course i've never met the guy or he wouldn't have a face, i'm actually afriad if i ever saw him i'd just lose it, and i mean to a point where i'd eat his flesh or some crazy shit, i'd just totally lose touch with reality...) he will do it again, just like his brothers... i'm usually for giving people a chance to change and having faith they can, but sometimes you just 'know' a person won't change, and you're alway sright... this is one of those instances... in a little under two years (it took nearly a year just for all the bullshit court dates... when he admitted he killed my brother, i really don't understand why it took so long) this guy will be out on the streets again, and he will do it again... maybe not right away, maybe even 20 years from now... but he obviously has no problem wtih someone's death on his conscience... he probably could have even saved my brother if he would have called 911 right when he shot him, rather than running to hide everything...
slipknotpsycho Reviewed by slipknotpsycho on . just a question... is it wrong for a grown man to cry... does that make them weak, or a 'pussy?' Rating: 5