Quote Originally Posted by birdgirl73
My worst day came just recently. My sister died on Thursday, November 2, and the following two days, Friday and Saturday, tied for worst day. Friday, I think, was the very worst. That was the day we had to go to the funeral home and handle arrangements and see her for the first time and have the visitation. The entire day was like a long nightmare.
yeah i know that feeling... my 17 year old brother was murdered, (yes that's another candidate) i am still in the nightmare, what makes it worse, is knowing this nightmare is never going to go away, the pain my subside, but those thoughts, (why, could i have saved them, what could i have done, what did i do wrong, ect ect.) are still there... i'm sorry i never posted in the thread about it birdgirl, but i really didnt' know what to say, except that i know your pain, very well infact, and that you're not alone on this subject...

just curious, but do you try to block it out... do you get really emotional at just the thought of reliving it? i try to block it out, as best as i can.. i refuse (for the most part) to accept he's gone, and still somewhat think of him still being here, i never mention him in the past tense, unless it's nessicary for the conversation at hand (for instance, remembering something he used to do, not nessicarily before he was dead, just things he used to do when he was younger)