Quote Originally Posted by slipknotpsycho
fortunately i dont' have to worry about this... my family hasn't really actively celebrated christmas since i was like 12... i mean there's always presents for the kids, a small get together of the family who lives closest to here (which isn't much, like at all..) but that's about it.... and since my whole family has basicly disowned me, i won't even be going to the party... haven't for the past couple of years either... would that bother most people? should it bother me?

i mean i do tend to get really depressed/lonely around this time (tho i'm not sure i will this year, usually i'd be already depressed, but it doesn't seem to be really bothering me this year) but my family has always disliked me so i've kinda grown used to the november-december cold shoulder i get....

but seriously, would that bother most of you? make you sad and feel like this world is against you? or would it just not really bother you?
I tell you what, man. I get depressed/lonely too. It used to bother me a great deal. It still does bother me, from time to time, but I do the only thing I can do: live with it. Would I prefer things be different? Yes, but they're not, and that's just the way it is.

Do I feel like the world is against me? Not as much "against me" as they are consumed with themselves. They don't go out of their way to make my life miserable (anymore), but they don't have a problem with laying some misery on me if that's what it takes to preserve their own happiness.