Taking a break for as long as needed...

[orangeman]

Ok, things aren't just going good in my life. Everything just seems like it's closing in and I really feel like I could just die any second. I've been smokin marijuana for the past 2 months or so everyday. I am now starting to feel like I'm losing my mind. My brain is operating in another way that I have never felt before. I almost feel perminantely fried. Just dumb and lost. The more I review in my mind the life that I am living now the more I can see my self fitting right in with the characters of Requiem for a Dream. I mean, it almost seems pointless to live anymore. Now I have realized where my mind was when I began this and now I see where it is now. I can't feel like this any longer.

My mom and dad told me all the time that my family is all I have, and it's true now, I finally see what they are saying. As much as I felt bad about everyone in my family in the past for the first time I really miss them and I don't want to lose them. My grandmother hasn't been doing well lately and I can only hope she gets better. If the worst happens I don't know what will take place. It just feels like everyone I know is slowly fading away and I really don't know what to do. I'm actually crying over here.

I plan on selling all the weed I have and I really want to just take the little bit of money I have and catching a bus and going some where to just release. I have finally come to the conclusion that a very bad period in your life and marijuana just does not mix. I hope you all can forgive me, I will still be hanging around here and keeping in touch but I have to stay out of touch with marijuana for as long as I have to until I can really CLEARLY and not just convincing my self that I am sane.

orangeman Reviewed by orangeman on 11-11-2006. Taking a break for as long as needed... Ok, things aren't just going good in my life. Everything just seems like it's closing in and I really feel like I could just die any second. I've been smokin marijuana for the past 2 months or so everyday. I am now starting to feel like I'm losing my mind. My brain is operating in another way that I have never felt before. I almost feel perminantely fried. Just dumb and lost. The more I review in my mind the life that I am living now the more I can see my self fitting right in with the Rating: 5

[BobBong]

Take care man, you know what you have to do.

Cannabis is not an escape from any problems you may have in life.

And understanding that is an important step towards helping yourself

Stay strong man,

Best wishes.
Bob.

[Skink]

the age old question,,,What is the meaning of life???

chill and tomorrow will be diff... Family is important,especially at your age,your lucky to realize it...

[couch-potato]

Me hat's off to ye lad, best o' luck.

[Dr. Dro]

Sorry to hear that.

[Frivolous248]

Good luck, I'm takin' a break too. Well, being forced to.

Hope things work out for the best.

[Nochowderforyou]

Do what you have to do man, just don't do anything irrational and stupid.

[crudemood]

Good move Orangeman. If you're sad marijuana tends to amplify that feeling. Sorry to hear you're life has started to spiral after daily smoking. I learned the same lesson a bit later than you. Glad you learned earlier than me. Good luck on picking your life back up, you can do it.

[iwantFUEGO]

Orangeman,

I'm sorry to hear about your bad times brother. Life is really strange, sometimes you're up and pulling ahead, and others you're down and falling behind. I can understand how you're feeling because i've felt that way too. I have been smoking everyday now for damn near 2 1/2 solid years and I definately know exactly what your talking about when you say that you're feeling lost and life is pointless.
Recently i tried cutting down to only smoking at night time. This helped me deal with life during the day and have something to look forward to at night (nothing like smokin a joint). This was a good way for me to not always be high and trying to deal with real life.
If you feel like quitting is a good idea then that is the best idea for you.
Remember at the end of the day, the only thing that makes the difference in you're life is if you're happy or not.
Hope your mom feels better.
Peace

[Bong30]

Best of luck OM. Shit..

let us know if we can we help..... I speak for all of us saying, we would do anything for you. Just ask.

Get your shit together and come back.....soon