I'm talking about when you die. you cant go insane when you die because you dont have a brain. When we die, it's kind of like we become little Gods. We cannot understand as mortals, thus we become God like to gain understanding. It is this experience where all of our human preconceptions about life and reality are shattered and we become totally imersed in the truth. We are no longer ourselves, we do not have our personality because nobody's personality is perfect. Instead, we transend and in that trancendence is a joy and happiness that extends beyond our primitave notions of joy and happiness that come from interactions of chemicals in the brain. It's hard to understand and even I can really only get my mind around it if I'm on acid.