One more thing. I've been good friends with this kid for a while who is openly gay and he is one of my best friends in the world (one of my only friends). But anyway, I was over at his house and we were just laughing and talking and there was a point where I felt like I could actually hook up with him. I was cmpletely sober BTW. I've always known I've had some bi feelings but I've never really acted on them but I'm scared that if I do anything I'll screw myself for life because I don't really life in the most gay friendly community. He asked me about it later if I liked him as more than a friend and I said I didn't know. What do you guys think, should I just lay off until I get older or just go for it now and try to be discreet? I know sooner or later I'm probably going to get drunk and hook up with him because that always happens to me with girls but what do you guys think. Should I be scared?