Well I figured it out when I dropped out of school to help my mom recover. She had a gastric bypass (stomach stapled) and ended up in a coma for 3 months. I had to help her learn everything all over again. How to write how to feed her self how to walk. I dressed her wound which at the time was about a foot long and 4 inches deep she no longer has a belly button I love to tease her about that, I wiped her butt went the theraphy with her, I did everything. I realized life is too short to complain about the small things and to live life the best way you can. The world is cruel and harsh but only if you look at it that way. There are alot of beautiful things and nice loving people the world has to offer and you just have to want to see it.