I'm so sorry to hear about your loss! I've lost dear animals and especially if they have always been with you, it's devastating! I am still in grief (I cry when I think of him) over my dog Emerson, who died at the age of 16 a year and 1/2 ago. He was the love of my life, truly.

I am sure your love for your kitty made her life very happy. Try to comfort yourself by remembering that she had a good life. Not all cats do. But she had you!