thnx for all the kind words im glad i didnt get a load of harsh replies (which was what i expected,) and im even more happy to know you all care and understand.

Anyway my dad took her up to my nans to bury her, - we're moving house soon so she would have only been dug up again if we had have buried her here, its okay though, she would have loved my nans garden, and is probably up in heaven being one of gods many garden mascots right now, its weird though, strange stuff was happening all around the house until my dad took her away, maybe she just wanted to be put to rest, and after all that suffering, i dont blame her... anyways its nice to know you can all relate or at least stop by to give a few kind words, it means alot thnx pps...