Confused.

[Satan666]

there's no way any other human being could possibly tell you what you are feeling is wrong or right. life happens, not always in the way you would think it would. if you feel this strongly about this person, perhaps you should think of it as the silver lining in an otherwise very dark time in your life. the beauty that comes from the pain as it were. perhaps your dad, if he can, is looking down on you now and happy that you were reunited with her in this way.

guilt is a very common emotional response to such a tremendous loss. just know that this is normal. there will plenty of days where you mourn the loss of your dad and feel what must be felt.

hope you can find a little peace.

The way i see it is if you feel it it must be right.

[d00d989]

sorry about your loss man

[tootsie roll]

thx all =)

i think im gonna just take a break from all this thought, stop trying to decide what to do and just live.

I might start toke'n agn this week, but I rly dont want to use weed as a way of solving emotional problems. just dosnt seem like a wise thing to do. Someone ont hese froums once said "smoke to enhance not to escape" and I think thats what im gonna do.

When she comes in this weekend I think we'll just hang out and see how things progress.

and in the words of Pink Floyd "I have become comfortably numb".

I'm so sorry you lost your dad. Very unfortunately and sadly, I am also a member of that club. I was 12, my dad was 43 my big brother was 16. Him and I both reacted differently and it was and is still rough on us. I miss my dad every day-every hour.

Be careful, protect your emotions and make sure, just in case, you have condoms with you. Right now you don't need a pregnant girlfriend that lives 2 hours away.
Take care of yourself.