t3hl0st, I'm sorry to hear about your fathers passing. When I lost my grandmother (almost as much of a mother as my bio) I also felt nothing, I think that is how it is sometimes.

About the girl though.

I think you really need to sit back and think about things before you take any action. Although you may feel like you love this girl now, rushing things (Even more so when im assuming the potential relationship will be long distance?) is a very bad idea. Its important to keep in mind that even though you knew this girl, and you have a basis for a current friendship, that you may not know her now. Keep your feelings undercontrol and try to avoid pressure,
considering the circumstances, there is a lot of room for her to see you out of pity for a while, leading to future heartach.

On the flip side, she may be truely interested in you and this could be a very exciting turining point in your life. Play it out, do what you want to do, and if anything let us know how it all turns out.

Good luck brother:stoned: