there's no way any other human being could possibly tell you what you are feeling is wrong or right. life happens, not always in the way you would think it would. if you feel this strongly about this person, perhaps you should think of it as the silver lining in an otherwise very dark time in your life. the beauty that comes from the pain as it were. perhaps your dad, if he can, is looking down on you now and happy that you were reunited with her in this way.

guilt is a very common emotional response to such a tremendous loss. just know that this is normal. there will plenty of days where you mourn the loss of your dad and feel what must be felt.

hope you can find a little peace.