My sister, Charlotte Elizabeth, 1955 - 2006

[birdgirl73]

I look forward to receiving signs and hope they'll come. I'd find the idea of signs emotionally comforting even if the intellectual part of me will need to categorize them as simple coindicences. Amazing how events like these put us on such a different spiritual plane. For some reason, my intuition tells me to look for signs in either birds or flowers.

Yeah, my parents are wiped out. They looked about 95 years old when we left their house earlier after everyone got home from the airport tonight. In reality, they're 73 and quite active and youthful, normally. This is the worst thing they've ever been through, and that's true for me, too. I think they can survive it with time. I wish our son could stay home from school longer than just till Monday, when he goes back, because he's a great comfort to them. Funnny how a grandchild, even a grown one, helps switch the focus back to life and the future. He'll be back in a couple of weeks for Thanksgiving.

Everyone seems overly worried about me, to be honest, but I think that's just because the caregiving there at the end was so rough. I am tired, but Dave had it rough, too. He and I were taking turns sleeping on the daybed in her room for the last couple of weeks, switching duty at 2 or 3 a.m. The hospice aides were here during the day, but we covered deep nights ourselves. My internist called in a script for something to help me get to sleep, and I'm trying to make a conscious effort to eat. One of the neighbors brought over a huge pot of vegetable beef soup, and of all the tons of food people have been bringing for the last two days (really the last couple of weeks), that's been the best stuff. I'm going to remember that next time someone dies in a friend's family and either do your chicken soup or vegetable like this. I'm about to go have some more of that. I haven't gotten the nerve up to tell my husband yet that I'm 100% certain my heart rhythm (I have a history of atrial fibrillation) is out of whack again because he'll hit the roof and possibly also threaten to insist my doc hospitalize me, which is unnecessary, but I'm going to go see my own cardiologist on Monday after school and get that officially confirmed. I went ahead and put myself back on the necessary blood thinner I have to take during spells of a-fib.

So that's the story of how things stand right now with me. Sorry it's so long. I'm about to go have some soup and then go to bed. Later, Toots!

[Skink]

I did not read the hubby insert befor I posted,,,good thing you were not e-dating,,,LOLz...

No really,,, you are lucky,he sound like good support...

[birdgirl73]

Yeah, he's a good guy, Skink. And he's quite possibly the most avid American fan of your current avatar that ever lived. I do believe the man could sit happily for four solid hours and watch that young lady walk or do the stairstepper or whatever she's doing to give herself that visible upper-body movement. He practically goes into a trance when he catches sight of those bosoms. I'm perfectly willing for him to enjoy that view. Goodness knows he's never seen--or handled--a pair of "girls" like that on me.

[orangeman]

Wow, this is painful for me to read. I'm tired of reading about death. The only thing that makes me sad and mad in life and it can't be avoided, things are just insane. Sorry Birdgirl, I will pray for you and hope that you continue to be alright.

[MyMARYJANE]

sorry to hear about your sister. hang in there.

[Ruairi.X]

Im sorry to hear of your recent loss. Good people are always missed. Heart, mind and soul.

[dopesmoker]

ascending to heaven
angels whispering their greetings
white light erasing the darkness
a new age, a new life begins
all rejoin in the end

[Skink]

Yeah, he's a good guy, Skink. And he's quite possibly the most avid American fan of your current avatar that ever lived. I do believe the man could sit happily for four solid hours and watch that young lady walk or do the stairstepper or whatever she's doing to give herself that visible upper-body movement. He practically goes into a trance when he catches sight of those bosoms. I'm perfectly willing for him to enjoy that view. Goodness knows he's never seen--or handled--a pair of "girls" like that on me.

She has a pretty smile is all...

[TheGreenFog]

My condolences to you and yours. I can't believe it took me this long to notice this thread. I'm sorry for your loss.

We're all with ya.

Rest in peace, Bess.

:rasta:

TGF

[tootsie roll]

Hi BG, are you here? I'm wondering how today went and if theres a way we can chat. Don't make me worry about you.:sadcrying

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