Bear,
I've seen from your postings here that you really do care about folks.Well...folks care about you too...even when you might doubt that.
I had young man that worked for me not all that long ago. Damn good kid...had his faults like the rest of us but would work his ass off for me.He helped my business tremendously because he would do all the things that I asked him to do without much question. I always paid him when i was supposed to and paid him well. He told me when he first went to work for me that he was trying to make a new life and a new start for himself.He did a lot toward that end ,but he drowned one summer afternoon because he was being just enough of a kid that it killed him.I think about him quite often and I miss him....but....his life was his own and not mine to control because if it was , he'd still be here....I don't know your loss personally but I do think I can relate on my own level.It hurts like hell , but with time , it does ease a bit , if only a bit. My prayers are with you......Dee....by the way ...that kid was 24 years old