A very touching and heartfelt posting Bear. I know that I'm new to this site and am having my own problems fitting in most times. But I do know of like losses in my life. Trust in the power of positive thinking and keep doing what your doing by your presence here , and that is helping others get what they want. It's been said by a man wiser than myself that if you help enough people get what they want , you'll indeed get what you want. May the God of your choosing bless you......Dee