Smoke another one and get out the want ads! Get some cash coming in from ANY job. Crying is a nice stress releiver, but after you finish crying, it's time to get your head together and get busy fixing what's wrong! Always consider moments like this as bottom- then there is no where to go but up. You ARE going to survive this, ya know. You have someone who loves you and your health--that's more that a lot of folks have! Get off the pity-pot, smoke a little sativa, and get your brain working. The answer is out there, you just have to look for it a bit more. It will get better eventually. :thumbsup: If you doubt your strength, think back on all the shit you've been through--you survived all of THAT, didn't you? There is no reason for you not to get through this rough patch! It will be tough for a while, but with someone by your side, you'll make it just fine! Hang in there, baby! :dance: