I'm about to fucking cry...

[daima]

Ever go lay down to go to bed and you start thinking about what a fucked up mess your in? I left my previous job because they wouldn't give me a raise when I was doing triple the work figuring it should be easy enough to find a new job. I mean fuck, I work in resturants, though granted I was trying to get out of those kind of jobs. Which is prob one of the reasons I'm in this fucked up mess. So a month and a half later, I'm still fucking unemployed, bills will be coming soon, and I have a fucking speeding ticket to pay sometime in november. Not to mention this is the sentencing hearing, so no more extentions. And to top off being broke, unemployed, and a fucking bum living off my girlfriend; my grades are shit. I'm not doing well this semester at all. I'm not on probation yet, but most likely will be after this semester. I hate fucking school. I want to finsh, I want to get my degree in english and settle for some boring, but well paying, technical writing career. I can't leave college because I don't know what the fuck I would do without a degree. I could go get my real estate license, I always thought being a real estate agent would be a fun job. But if I'm working for a firm, they are just taking most of my money. Not to mention the market changes. One year I could be making bank and two years from than I'm having to sell my house... I've considered technical school, but don't really know what field I would go into... I just feel so fucking lost right now and I can honestly say I haven't felt this way in a while.

I need to change some shit. Sorry, I really needed to vent.

94% of everything i learned in school
was bullshit i dont need
84.8% of everything i bought
i got to satisfy my greed.

dai*ma:stoned:
it doesnt sound to me like you are as lost as you think.
finding out what works, what doesnt work, is part of everything you'll ever do.
a degree might be the key to the door for some, but it isnt for all.
I raised two kids, helping with the grandkids, and i never got a degree, never worked a "regular job", and was always willing to take risks.
stop looking at what you are told you should have, and look at what really makes you happy. you'd be suprised how much stress is reduced by simplifying your life.

[DonnieDarko]

You really should focus on the great many positives in your life ... do you got your health ??? Some people don't ... Do ya got a brain that works ?? Then figure things out ....

Is crying about your life workin for ya ?? There are lots of people in the world in worse shape. Get to know some of them. Maybe you can even help them ... and if you do, your life might be a little better.

[CYRAX]

Beleive me, I know how you feel one hundred percent.

[Storm Crow]

Smoke another one and get out the want ads! Get some cash coming in from ANY job. Crying is a nice stress releiver, but after you finish crying, it's time to get your head together and get busy fixing what's wrong! Always consider moments like this as bottom- then there is no where to go but up. You ARE going to survive this, ya know. You have someone who loves you and your health--that's more that a lot of folks have! Get off the pity-pot, smoke a little sativa, and get your brain working. The answer is out there, you just have to look for it a bit more. It will get better eventually. :thumbsup: If you doubt your strength, think back on all the shit you've been through--you survived all of THAT, didn't you? There is no reason for you not to get through this rough patch! It will be tough for a while, but with someone by your side, you'll make it just fine! Hang in there, baby! :dance:

[az666]

I somtimes feel like crying over the stupidest things...
Someone will say somthing on TV and I will well up with tears...it happens alot actually.
Tonight was the first night that I had tears running down my face, I have no idea why. I just felt sad and then the tears came. lol

I hope shit starts to sort itself out for you dude!!

[NextLineIsMine]

Dwelling on your problems, regreting the past, and being envious of others is the biggest waste of time on the planet.

[napolitana869]

good luck with everything. you seem like a smart guy, i'm sure you'll be able to figure something out.

[daima]

Beleive me, I know how you feel one hundred percent.

its too much to think about
too much to figure out
stuck between hope and doubt
it's too much to think about

dai*ma

[CityBoyGoneCountry]

Dwelling on your problems, regreting the past, and being envious of others is the biggest waste of time on the planet.

You said it the nice way.

I'll say it the way it has always been said to me...

Stop crying like a little bitch, grow some balls, and do something about it.

[Jongbong]

this is why i love this board, everyone is helping out man, eeeeeveryone.
i feel your pain, but everyone here is right, you'll figure it out one way or the next. good luck pal