My mother was an alcoholic. She drank herself into liver failure and put a bullet through her brain... You are on a very slippery slope, my boy. I'm old enough to be your granny and I'm saying that what you are doing may not be weird-kids get high,- but it is very dangerous. Alcohol can kill you, pot can't. Your Mom loves you, so for her sake, if not for your own, quit! At least for a few weeks, cool it on the booze. See where your head is at after a few weeks of not drinking.