I'm not religious either, and needless to say I disagree with a lot of things religions like christianity and catholicism forbid. Would god want you to be unhappy? No. Masturbation, sex, a closer relationship to the one u love- those are all great things, and whos right is it to stop you from all of those things? If god really exists I see him as a being who wants happiness and peace for everyone. And being an irrational hardass is definitely not part of that.