Anyway, let me give you some quick background info. I'm a recent smoker. The only things I've done in the past is drink and DXM, but I don't think I've been completely and incredibly drunk, neither have I been much past mid-third plateau on dextro. Basically, I'm fresh meat.

But I've smoked weed for the first time about a month ago, even though I wouldn't call it that (it was just a quick hit to see the technique and stuff). The second time I ever smoked was this past Sunday. I took a few hits from this crappy pipe my brother made, but it still did something. That was a nice high. I wouldn't say I was happy as in laughing hysterically, but more on the reigns of being content and all-knowingness. I also had much nostolgia and flashbacks from when I was a kid. And the Doors sounded awesome.

Anyway back to the subject, the third and last time I smoked was this past Tuesday night around 10:30pm. I didn't have to go into school early the next day so I thought I'd be cool. Anyway, my bro borrowed his friend's pipe, so it wasn't the crappy homemade one. I took either two or three hits- and it was weird because I had determination for mind power that seemed to work because when I thought I wasn't high, or told myself ,I was still pretty straight, my head was clear. And then when I relaxed, I became more aware of the results. Anyway, next, I took a huge ass hit and that's when things got bad. First I got a little dizzy, which was fine, but it was accompanied with a gagging reflex, which if fine also because I heard it's normal to feel like throwing up the first few times.

But then I remember like dozing off, almost like dieing. And then when I realized this, I "woke up" in a way. And the sensation was incredible. It felt like that feeling right before you wake up from sleeping--when you have that tingling sensation, that sort of sucking and muffled sound in your ears...you know that sort of mind you're in on the borderline between sleeping and being awake. Seeing that I'm all into that whole sleep cyle thing (I find it interesting, dreams and all) I found this experience incredible. And I found myself saying "Oh my God." Then something happened. Like a lapse in time. I'm not sure where I was, but I was not with me..like an OBE. This seperation freaked me out and when I realized this sort of mentatily, I snapped back into reality and when I did, I heard myself again continuing from back when I was saying "Oh my God." Kind of like my life paused, and as it stood still, my mind went back to the left corner of my brain just to chill there for a second, then when it had its rest, it click rewind and then play again. Like a lapse in time.

Anyway, this became extremely uncomfortable. I don't know if any of you saw Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, but towards the end when he's following her in his memories, when he's following her one second, and the next she's gone. That's what my mind was like. I don't know if that was the memory loss effect thing. I would be sitting down, and when I felt myself drift from reality/being awake, I began freaking out because it felt what I imagine death to be, and in my mind I'd be saying, "You need to go get a drink of water or something". And then in like five minutes (but was really probably just a few seconds) I'd "wake up" and I'd be holding onto my waterbottle. As in the time from sitting down to going to my bedroom, to my waterbottle never existed. Again, like a lap[se in time.

I compared this all to what I imagine a "conscious strobelight" to be. Anyway my brother said it was the most freaked out he's ever been. He believed the drug might have bought out a sort of unknown bipolar-side to me because he said I'd be in awe one second, then I'd race to the other end of the room and start banging my head (I actually remembered this, because this was when I was trying to "stay awake" or rather "alive") and then I'd start threatening him/crying.

I also remember thinking how I wanted to call 911 so bad but I didn't want anyone to get into trouble. I even was thinking about making a note, just so someone would understand how I died. Of course I never could find the paper (even though I had like an entire stack on the desk).

The effects kind of lasted until 6pm the next day. Of course, not as strong. But I had major memory lapses, and just the whole day seemed awkward and strange for some reason.

Anyway the point is: Supposidly this was a bad trip, right? I never knew weed could really give a bad trip. First I thought the shit coulda be laced, but considering my Bro smoked it too..I don't think so. And I don't believe I smoked too much. And I wan't uncomfortable/not in the right relaxed state of mind prior to smoking either.

I was wondering if this might have been because of my high interest in dreams. Or could it have bought out this sort of insane side? Could trips/expereinces on weed be different according to what you've ate prior to also (because I ate shit load of sugar before smoking).

Or was this just because I'm still new to the drug?

Anyway, thanks and sorry about this being to long.

Peace.

--Sarah
strobelight27 Reviewed by strobelight27 on . Hey so is this normal. If so, shit that's so insane. Anyway, let me give you some quick background info. I'm a recent smoker. The only things I've done in the past is drink and DXM, but I don't think I've been completely and incredibly drunk, neither have I been much past mid-third plateau on dextro. Basically, I'm fresh meat. But I've smoked weed for the first time about a month ago, even though I wouldn't call it that (it was just a quick hit to see the technique and stuff). The second time I ever smoked was this past Sunday. I took a few Rating: 5