I wish I could go ahead and be old. I've always wanted to be old and have always enjoyed the company of old people more than kids my age. One of the greatist relationships I've ever had was with my grandfather on my dad's side. I would listen to him tell stories literally for hours on end and I never got bored. I think I just hate people like me. I have to seek out people vastly different from me because when I'm around them I'm less like myself. I figure soon, I will be able to divorce myself from myself and recreate myself into a completely different human bien, the man I've always wanted to be.