Thats gotta be hard. Keep your head up though no matter what happens, dont put yourself around weed or alcohal if you cant handle being around it (and be honest with yourself weather you can or not). Id spend your time busying yourself with school, and a job. Save that shit up so you can buy a couple Os of chron when you get off probation (or whatever prabation thing you have) :rasta: And if it ever gets too much for you, go to a church. It seems thing are getting better for you though. Stay in stable relationships or dont have them at all, the strain can bring you down. Well anyways, im not trying to tell you what to do, and im probably telling you shit you already know, but I just have seen alota people in similar situations to yours who fucked up bad, and wouldnt want you to make the same mistakes :thumbsup: