You can keep using that the-earth-is-round historical perspective story all you want, GS, and keep attributing people's assessments of you as simply being because you go against the social norm. But the truth is, plenty of avant garde types go against the social norm and aren't considered nuts. Look at artists, writers, thinkers, inventors, revolutionaries and explorers throughout history, and you'll actually find that most weren't considered nuts. Just different.

You're not in the category of people going against the social norm, as much as I know you want to believe you are. People call you nuts because you have paranoid delusions, because you hear buzzing sounds in your head when no real buzzing is occurring. Because you fear things that aren't going to happen will happen, imagine things like white vans parked on the street are there for sinister purposes, and put heavy emotional stock in paranoia-mongering "crazy prophets" like Alex Jones, and see conspiracies where conspiracies don't exist. You've said before that your family worries about you and that you have a family history of mental illness. You've voiced certainty that you will either die at your own hands or be killed because of your beliefs. You also exhibit a relentless compulsion to spread your beliefs and warn others. That compulsion is another danger sign. If you weren't unwell, you could just let this go and keep your own counsel, thinking all the different thoughts you wanted. But you can't let this go, either.

This is a genuine plea for you to be assessed and screened for mental illness. You display all the warning signs and more. Please, please, please, please get some much-needed help. You can have more peace than you may realize. And the rest of us, could, too. Please? What would it take for you to simply let someone screen you?