Inferius, I felt sad when I read your post. Sad that you're feeling down on yourself. I hope it's just a phase you're going through.

You know what? I just turned 45 and don't know a thing about life myself or where I really fit into it. I know I'm connected to my family and that I have a place in my community and in school. But is that all there is? I often ponder that question. I wasn't sure of anything when I was your age, and I'm still not sure today. Formally religious people, I'm sure, would tell me these questions signal a deep spiritual emptiness, but I generally find those types of people completely full of it.

It's a Plant, who is a wise and wonderful soul, had some really good suggestions for you. Definitely step outside the bounds of high school and meet some real people to connect with. High school is so superficial. It's understandable that you don't feel connected with anyone there. Two great ways to reach beyond that environment are through working or volunteering. Online friends are great, too, because there's something very freeing about the anonymity, but I think the deepest emotional connection comes from real in-person interaction. And when you reveal enough of yourself to others--and by this I mean real emotional revelation, deep sharing of feelings--you really do connect and feel less alone. This takes lots of practice, and the vulnerability required to do it is not easy.

I think it's admirable that you "revealed" your true self to us. That took courage. And I don't know if you've noticed or not, but your responses seem to indicate that you're highly regarded and cared about here, no matter who you are. I have never failed to enjoy reading your posts and seeing your insights, which are quite beyond the scope of your chronological years. I think the world of you and want you to feel the same way about yourself.

Take care, my friend. Much love and light to you.
birdgirl73 Reviewed by birdgirl73 on . The Illusion Of Communication Through body language, facial expression, tone, and the words used to describe something, we humans attempt to communicate our perception of reality amongst each other. >>>>>>>>>>>>But we all die alone. >>>>>>>>>>>>We never truly understand one another. >>>>>>>>>>>>We are always, forever, alone. We pretend to "grasp" another human's perception through comparison to our own, or through chemicals designed to make us feel as if we've "bonded", Rating: 5