"You live
you love
you die
each time you slide away
still you try, and try, but you know
some things in life will never go your way"

- PGroove "It Starts Where It Ends"

I think you're at an age where you're going to be constantly changing, trying to find yourself. There's no way I'd even think I would be the person I am today way back in my freshman year of high school. But it's all about self-discovery and soul-searching.

I like how Crudemood summed up what it's like to be friends with someone else. Each of you, though obviously different in your own ways, each bring something to the table, and hopefully learn from each other as your bond grows. But if the bond is created on a lie or something unstable, I can see that 'friendship' crashing.

And Gizmo - - I never realized or thought you were lying on this site, and still don't. I knew you were around that age, that you dropped out, and that you despise the high school fads and trends. Unless you were lying about something else? I just don't see it.

I've always enjoyed reading what you have to say, for the longest time. Nearly every one of your posts I try and read. They all have voice and personality and very often a sense of humor similiar to my own. It just kind of shocks me that you're so down and out about life, love, and happiness.

My advice, if I can even offer any, would be to meet some new people, possibly outside the prison walls of high school. Get involved in community service, or a soup kitchen for the homeless. It sounds like you just need something to belong to, something to maybe bring you back around to the idea that humans may indeed 'die alone', but the connections you make with some people are ever-after and constant, forever. And good luck with the ladies - - just don't go out and screw anything that moves b/c you're better than that! Anyone that recognizes who you truely are, as I think I have for the most part, will be lucky to have you. They're out there. Now you just gotta bridge the gap and try and meet her halfway.

Good luck with your journey Gizmo, and remember - - do not eat chicken after midnight! ~