Sounds like a good approach, Someuser, certainly as good as many others. Maybe you'll find some spiritual sustenance there. I don't know much about Wiccans except that fundamentalist Christians don't approve of them, which makes them alright in my book. I know many Wiccans find a lot of peace in nature and embrace the natural world with great reverence. I like that.

As far as counseling's concerned, try and keep an open mind. Just because one counselor didn't work doesn't mean it's not without value, even someday perhaps for you. There are lots of different counselors and lots of different therapies, many very helpful. People need to want to do therapy in order for it to succeed, however, and many do not. Also, I think hypnosis is a very good tool for helping re-target unconscious patterns and thoughts, and it's very calming, too. Just keep these things in mind for the future when you might be ready for other tools.