Quote Originally Posted by someuser
Man, that touches way to close to home... I honestly didnt think anyone else knew what it feels like... I mean people tell one another they 'love' each other all the time but most of the time it is 99% bullshit... Real love... It is something so much more then what the average couple tries to pass off as love.

But when you do find real love the only emotion more intense then being with that person is being without that person. Back in the day if we went more then 3 days without each other it was enough to drive us to do anything it took to see one another... Multiply that by 6 yrs and it feels so unbearable at times... I dont like the idea of this 'never going away'.
That's love for you. When you experience it, something that makes you feel so complete, yet so painfully incomplete when you lose the source. You have to love and respect yourself to find peace. If you love her, you have to respect her path to happiness, no matter how it may result. You have to wish for her happiness, because she wishes for yours. I can't say what can make you happy, because we all are unique, each one of us is on our own path and only within do you know what you desire. However you gotta fight the yearns for her presence, because it'll only hold you back from acheiving happiness. Within you, you can create your own destiny, fighting back from the grasps this powerful addictive emotion that binds to your soul.

Quote Originally Posted by someuser
I hear what you're saying, I just dont know how to make those steps to living the way I wish to live... All I wish is to live life with her. Without her, everything seems hollow... Girls, sex, money, my job... Everything means nothing to me.
Create a sense of purpose. What that may be, you have to find yourself. Ask yourself why you are doing the things you are doing. Do you truly enjoy the path you are on? What do you want to truly achieve in the greater outcome? When you find it is when everything else falls into place. Only experiencing something so powerful, can you exhibit a power to change your path. Life works in strange ways, perhaps you may eventually be together again, perhaps never again, but one thing is certain. If you don't achieve happiness on your own, you can never experience that same love again. With love so great, it never goes away.

Quote Originally Posted by someuser
Well, to my credit, I did tell her she would never be hearing from me again. She replied she promised never to email me again. I dont know if that will be enough though... I went a year before not talking to her and that didnt 'help' at all... I dont mean to sound like a pussy but this is really scaring the shit out of me.
The one thing is you shouldn't close the door. With that comes acceptance of a life apart and pain from being apart. It does not mean you two can't be completely out of each others lives. You love each other after all, you wish each other the best. You have to struggle to accept the cards that have been dealt. You have to draw strength and fight man! You aren't a pussy to fear this. You gotta fight, you can't wallow and let it consume you, because what would you become? It ain't easy.