Quote Originally Posted by someuser
Zip, zero, natta. They say no one is perfect but she was perfect for me. I loved everything about her. The entire 2.5yrs with her I never once was tempted nor desired any other woman on any level... Even now, I cant find any girls that can come close to her.

She has the most beautiful thick long brown hair and deep brown eyes... Think Natalie Portman from Star Wars II when they were on Naboo with the waterfalls in the background... She had this heart of gold, loved kids, loved animals, she was just so... Pure. She honestly was angel like. And the nights together were just so intense... I never felt so close to someone. It was like heaven on earth. Her family was like a 2nd family to me and everyone treated me like family in return. I was an 'honorary' uncle to her niece... I mean I could go on and on but I can safely say, even after all these years, I cant find anything wrong with her... Even after all the pain I cant resent her at all. All I can do is feel empty inside; Lost. It's a feeling that is with me 24/7... I cant sleep, I cant keep a steady job down, I have no desire to hang out with friends or do the things I use to love... All I wanted to do for the last 6yrs was to die... I just have been too chicken shit.
Be glad you are a chicken shit. Dying is pointless and causes so much pain to those close to you. There is something better if you look and open your eyes. Life is continuous change. Even tho i'm 5 years younger, I been through birth, suffering and sickness, and lived quite an accelerated life. Time is short. Find your way to be full, exploring Wiccan can only bring positive things for you to find peace.