Quote Originally Posted by thcbongman
I know exactly how you feel. There's a girl who I have never completely gotten over. It's like everytime you talk to her, you both feel the love, despite all the pain you both went through. You have to accept the fact that these feelings won't ever go away. I spent years trying to forget about her, and I know it's the same with her. Even to this day, everytime we talk, there's an innuendo that will always suffice, an aura so powerful you succumb.
Man, that touches way to close to home... I honestly didnt think anyone else knew what it feels like... I mean people tell one another they 'love' each other all the time but most of the time it is 99% bullshit... Real love... It is something so much more then what the average couple tries to pass off as love.

But when you do find real love the only emotion more intense then being with that person is being without that person. Back in the day if we went more then 3 days without each other it was enough to drive us to do anything it took to see one another... Multiply that by 6 yrs and it feels so unbearable at times... I dont like the idea of this 'never going away'.

Quote Originally Posted by thcbongman
You want to love, don't let your selfish desires run your life. You can wish all you want, what could've been, but it won't change your outlook. Everyday is a new day, and life is so unpredictable, the next day, you could be dead.

Live life the way you wish to live it. That's all you can do. Don't let your problems run your life. When you live life the way you want too, you will fall in love again.
I hear what you're saying, I just dont know how to make those steps to living the way I wish to live... All I wish is to live life with her. Without her, everything seems hollow... Girls, sex, money, my job... Everything means nothing to me.

Quote Originally Posted by thcbongman
It's tough, I know exactly how you feel. It'll help if you don't try to talk to her often. Send her birthday wishes, and keep it at that. You gotta get over the addiction to those particular emotions. Good luck man.
Well, to my credit, I did tell her she would never be hearing from me again. She replied she promised never to email me again. I dont know if that will be enough though... I went a year before not talking to her and that didnt 'help' at all... I dont mean to sound like a pussy but this is really scaring the shit out of me.