The fact of the matter is this.

I had plans for today, indeed my whole life, but each time that I try to realise those plans, something comes along to scupper them; ie, the bank has left me no money, or my ex- is giving me grief, because she thinks that I owe her some sort of respect and caring..pah!..
I work fucking hard all week, and all that I ask is to live a moderatly unassuming life - I cause no one harm, and wish no malice towards anyone - and yet, I am never made happy. Anything that I try to do to improve my life or outlook thereof, is thwarted at every turn by the requirements of this fucking unfair system of rich-get-richer, poor-get-poorer. Evilness seems to win over good at every battle, and selfishness gets rewarded.
Show a little compassion, or caring, or love, and everything goes against you - you're seen as some kind of wierdo.

You spend your life thinking that there are certain aims and 'promises' - there si someone for evryone in this world, someone that is made for you, so we are told...all of it is lies...or , if it is true, you can only see those things from a distance, because quite frankly, it is just another torment designed to confuse you...another barrier that has to be overcome!

I'm fed up of trying to climb over barriers.
I'm pissed off that I have been 'lied' to for all these years, and that, actually, I seem to be some kind of puppet for the amusement of some unseen tormentor.

I'm pissed off with living.
Pissed off that every morning I wake up to the same struggle, day in day out, with seemingly no means of escape.
Fucked off, that everything that I love, is either out of reach, or denied me all together.
And fucked off that people who exhibit an attitude of selfish behaviour and lack of compassion, seem to have better lives and are happy in their own world.

Why is it, that compassion and caring, are rewarded with pain and hardship - at every level?
Why is it, tha the desire to live peacefully and unambiguously, are met with derision, ridicule, and no small amount of distain?
Why is it, that my simple wishes from life can't be realised, when others who live their lives with greed and possession, seem always to get what they desire - even though their actions can be seen as detrimental to the grand scheme of things?

There is no justice, and therefore, no point.

There is no spoon.